It seems I never quite learn the lesson that I am not in control of my schedule. It's not all about me (see The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren). "We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps" (Proverbs 16:9, NIT). And I had so many--hosting Easter dinner, spring cleaning, finishing touches on my renovated kitchen, finishing an overhaul of my bathroom, cleaning my gardens.
But here I sit, all projects unfinished and on hold. It's extremely difficult--the waiting, missing deadlines, wondering when I'll be feeling "normal" again. And continue on with my busy little plans. But God maybe had other plans. I don't think God is mean and inflicts pain, disease and calamity on us for the fun of it. But ". . . the Lord disciplines those he loves . . ." (Proverbs 3:12, NIV). He will do whatever He needs to do to make us suitable for eternal life.
And what He needs to do in me is help me relinquish my control, or the belief that I am in control. It's a hard lesson to learn. I have my life so programmed that sometimes I feel that it's too much to make a telephone call to stay in touch with a friend. My priorities need to change. I need time for God, and people that I love.
It'll all get done--the cleaning, the gardening. Just not on my timetable.
". . . Thy will be done . . ." (Matthew 6:10, KJV).
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| The mess in the kitchen. |